Seven Days Seven Nights
I have been fasting for seven days now and feel more clear-headed than I’ve ever been. For a while, I underestimated the power of fasting and didn’t really consider it a ‘working.’ But in mentorship, I learned EVERYTHING DOES NOT NEED A CANDLE.
This was reaffirmed by my ancestors because the fasting wasn’t even my idea—it was the result of divination regarding a particular area of my life where I was self-inflicting confusion and emotionally backtracking in one of my personal relationships. Through this process, I realized that most attachments and energies thrive off the emotions you feed them—both good and bad. To overcome emotions that create toxic attachments, you have to starve the source: YOU. All the things that make you grow comfortable in that energy, you have to deprive yourself of them to get closer to the divine truth of the matter—not your own.
It requires you to be clear about your goal so you can initiate release and fine-tune with the divine. The true power resides within the worker (you) to lean into God to give you the strength to break the chain. I think this is why, afterward, you feel more powerful, lighter, clearer, and inspired.
“In order to fly, you gotta let go of the shit that weighs you down…”
—Toni Morrison (Song of Solomon)
The second day was HARD, and temptations were high, but by the third day, I felt a clarity like no other. Let’s go back and examine the second day. For me, that was the day of release—when my body, mind, and spirit felt the source of the shame, guilt, and fear that resided within me. I cried as I stated and faced my true frustrations aloud in the shower, and shortly after, I began to pray. I realized I WAS THE SOURCE OF MY CONFUSION because I didn’t want the past to be the past. I hadn’t made peace with my fears and the source of my guilt and shame. I kept it alive. I made it thrive emotionally.
You see, sometimes our denial of the truth and reality of a matter can be so strong we create delusions that lead to chaos—because what IS isn’t what WE WANT. So we keep the source of our pain alive through the contracts we sign by feeding negative emotions and toxic cycles. Some things must be laid to rest before you can move forward, and the only way to do that is through you—through fasting. It’s a process of transmutation, if you will.
That same day—if not the next—I briefly thought about Jesus fasting for 40 days and 40 nights and the tests that came during and after. Reflecting more deeply, I think the Holy Spirit knew how clear Jesus needed to be so that when the Prince of Darkness came with offerings, though His body was weary, His spirit was of the LORD. He was so fine-tuned with the divine that, despite the worldly pleasures many wouldn’t have refused, He could look the devil in the eyes and say NO.
I trust in the LORD. I trust in my angels. And I trust that if God has sustained me this far, He can sustain me even further if I search for Him when I need clarity and truth. If I deny myself the things I think I need to get by and focus on the divine—focus on my true source, my true calling, my true power—I will be blessed. And so Jesus was, and so are we.
I think that’s why we fast—no matter the faith. It’s to connect to the source within and around us and to know that we are never without guidance or support in the spirit realm.
So when you find yourself drowning in shame, embarrassment, guilt, confusion, chaos, and other emotions or situations that don’t seem like they can move, FAST. Look for the divine in the whirlwind. Connect to the source and allow the purge to happen so you can become clear.
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Happy New Year Souljahs ♡